Tuesday, May 29, 2012

creating


i'm still here. it's been a bit since i have written here. i have been trying to create an essay which captures some of the reasons why i began to travel. at the moment it reads a bit trite and predictable. i wonder what i can do to make it a bit more creative...

i suppose most may be hip to what is going on in the film industry and advertisements... i'm not. i just get the sense that there is a new way of expressing an idea or image or product in these short artsy films like the above. i have no idea what it is... i found it some where and i don't even remember where. but it is pretty...

it reminds me of how efforts and ideas and creativity slowly unfold at their own pace. so often we do what we can to create, and much of it is out of our hands... we leave room and time for it to blossom into what it will be. our job is to show up, do our part... and let.

hello...
to you!

Monday, May 14, 2012

Thursday, May 10, 2012


the dress shop

Sketch of evening gown costume for Anything Goes







Hello. I have passed your shop a million times. I find it beautiful and inspiring. I love the charm of your shop; the lovely dresses, the pretty interior design, and the lighting and arrangement.

I get to wondering who is the owner and what were the initial thoughts and ideas in connection to the conception of the shop, the ideas and plans before, the inspiration. I'm curious, how long have you been here? Who are your clients and customers?

I am reminded of a gorgeous shop in Barcelona, in the old town. I can see it in my mind. I was only wandering the old streets of Barcelona in the Barri Gottic. The way the narrow streets wind and wrap in and through the area invite strolling around garden courtyards and taking in the artist beauty of buildings and architecture, shops and restaurants...

It was a hot summer's day, the kind where most and all is shed because it is to hot for anything else. It's too hot to hold on. I managed to hold on to my worries. I was worried and preoccupied about what to do with my life. Also, should I leave the relationship I was in, as it was not good for me. What do I want to grow up to be?

I wandered past a small intimate private shop, unlike anything I had ever seen before, and I haven't seen anything like it since. I stood looking outside the shop at the luxurious gowns which seemed from another time and place, a more glamourous time. They were elegant and delicate, detailed and feminine, sequined and beaded. Stunning.

Fear keeps me from doing most of what I want to do in life. I would be afraid to go into a place like that. Normally I would move on and lose out on this uncommon and majestic thing, but I just couldn't. It was too pleasing. I had to step in.

The woman sitting behind the desk, sewing, smiled and greeted me. It was like walking into a kind of paradise, a wonderland of sweet creations. Seemingly vintage, from another time, but they did not have the oldness or staleness to them. This was not the stuff of Mrs. Hammersham, old worn out beauty, but a new fresh beauty infused with the values of another age.

I told her how beautiful I found her shop. She thanked me. The Spanish sun streamed in the large windows allowing warmth and light to fill this small intimate space. We began a glorious conversation. First about the lovely dresses. She told me she made them herself, every one of them. The beauty, the detail, the styling... everything. I asked who wears these gowns? People wear them to masquerade balls, formal affairs. They are also bought for film and theatre. Lovely.

She asked me where I was from. I told her. She said that I looked like her husband. She showed me a picture. Could be.

In our fears we forget the other persons on the other side.We never know what our connection might be to them. I think of them when I think of that dress shop; a spot of light and beauty and glamour on a light grey cool end of winter day.

Your special shop here reminds me of that moment. I am wondering if I could spend some time here. It seems like an atmosphere I would like to be in for a while; one of beauty, light and inspiration. I could learn a lot being in this shop, Perhaps you could use my help in some way?

beautiful




i'm here having the pleasure of writing. i know that so often in my writing i love using the word 'beautiful.' i thought i'd have a look at a thesaurus and see what words are suggested to use when i mean to use the word beautiful. some suggestions are...

charming, graceful, elegant, appealing, gorgeous, stunning...
and too...prettiness, loveliness, vision, goddess, pleasing, sweet perfumed, fragrant, majestic...

as a writer, think i might be falling in love with thesauri.

been rewriting my resume. i want to create one that reflects my desire and vision of myself as an artist, teacher and writer. the one i have now is full of business experience from the world of finance and business. seeing myself from new perspectives can feel strange... but it feels good and right.

how are you? what are you doing?
sending love...

Thursday, May 3, 2012

install a shower at home take a bath using shower Do You Think to Install a Shower at Home?



what is it about a shower, that makes it alright?

Sunday, April 29, 2012

i woke up this morning and wondered where is God. i find myself in the middle of something... a moving, a getting to some place, or perhaps even better, getting to who i really am. in this movement, not much is clear. it hurts sometimes, even though i am comforted as i can see the movement and growing and happenings in beneficial ways. i am thinking it is much like exercise, the work and exhaustion and effort connected to it. still it is so good for us and leads us to good places of feeling good and being healthy and inspiring others. but while in the midst it's a pain, it's sweaty and smelly and unattractive. but what comes of it is quite glorious.

this thing i am in the middle of, all unattractive and painful at times, i see the progress and movement and i am encouraged to continue to run the race. i look around in the midst of the chaos and unprettiness and i ask God 'Where You at?' Way down deep inside, not far at all, but a deep knowing and assurance that God is indeed in the midst of this, and we are doing this...together. So the thought does not stay as it has no ground to plant itself in the midst of love and encouragement, the help and comfort and assurance that God gives. I remember from where we have come, to rest if we must, but not to get weary in doing a good thing, and to continue...

i thought how funny afterwards. 'Where You at?' God understands when we get weary, and understands when we've gotten it all wrong. I got a quick sense of knowing...'You know I'm here.' it was gentle, it was kind, it was funny, and if i were to let myself go there... the response could have been 'Are you kidding me? You know I'm here!'

I thought of Jennifer Hudson's song 'Where You at?' i know that God is near. i hope you can feel God's presence and gentle comfort and company today. i thought of you this morning and I am always reminded of your gentle presence here, your words of inspiration and encouragement, and the way we laugh and play with our ideas and endeavors, our fashion enjoyment and simply interesting and creative beautiful doings. Your presence is a gift! Thank you... Here's the song. it's a really good one...